Friday, June 8, 2012

These Are the Best Days

It seems as if life is spent constantly looking forward or backward; we either analyze the past or anticipate the future. Rarely do we simply enjoy the moment, relishing the way life is playing out right in front of us.

I'm guilty of this. I've always looked forward to the "next big thing," and I've done my fair share of remembering the "good old days," which didn't seem so good back then. But today I had a revelation. This time right now, this moment in life, this is exactly where I want to be. I know there will come a day when I remember when Emily was a baby, Lizzie was by my side, and Keith and I were living in our first house trying to make it through his residency.

I don't want to look back and know I didn't realize just how great it was. So today, when the doorbell was ringing, Lizzie was barking, Emily was crying, and the phone was ringing, I decided to live in this moment. Because as hectic and stressful as it can be, this is the best moment in my life so far. I feel happy, complete, and totally satisfied in my life. How many people can say that?




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  1. I find it so difficult to not spend my time anticipating the future, knowing that there are such great things to come, to the point where I've actually had panic attacks over it. I have to literally just stop and breathe, and know that there's no way to rush things along anyway, so I might as well suck it up and live day to day.

    But I do know that right in this moment, I'm not in a place where I really want to be. Yes, I'm so excited to meet our little baby and become a little family, but my job is just so bad for me. It doesn't put me in a healthy place, mentally, emotionally, or physically. The stress of it all is not something that I want to live in day to day, and I think that's where I find myself dreaming of better days the most.

    That's why leaving this job behind is something that I'm looking forward to, almost as much as the baby. I know that it probably sounds a little strange, but it's true. I have count downs going for both big events: my last day of work here, and my first day of motherhood. :)

    I know that the job I'm about to take on is something that I'll never begin to understand until I'm experiencing it, but I just so feel so, so ready to jump in with both feet and never look back.

    So for now, or for the next 34 days at least, I'm going to keep counting down the days until I'm free from this stress and dreaming of what will follow. The future has never looked so good.

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    1. I totally understand. When you're in a bad situation, it's hard not to look toward the future and wish it would just hurry up and get here already. But, like you soon will be able to, I quit the job that caused me stress and so now I can say that I am truly in the place I was looking forward to the most. I'm so happy that you will be able to do the same thing. You are going to love your new job! :-)

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  2. P.S. Sorry that my comment was almost as long as your post. ;)

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    1. Ha, is it weird that long comments make me excited?

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